Sunday, November 26, 2006;
♥ 9:41 PM
home alone. me. yep. and i feel. well i don't know how to describe.
parents and sister in taiwan. i chose not to go though =p
its not that good, its not that bad either. its good coz i get the purest form of freedom. if you know what i mean, like besides the need to revise and stuff. i feel quite guilty these past weeks coz i haven't started revision. oh man. i really neeed to start soon. lazy me. =.=
however its bad coz at home a bit zo bo. like very boring, but yet you know its supposed to be like this. i have all the time to go anywhere i want, but somehow i've got no spirit for it. i wonder if its loneliness? like i prefer not to think it that way. i mean i could chat online and stuff. maybe i just miss the fun of having my family around, coz the house is really quiet, well besides the fact that i'm turning the volume of my speakers louder than usual, otherwise yea its quiet when the music isn't on.
but this isn't a bad experience, and i'm like so making it sound so bad LOL. really it isn't bad. its the second day and i've already learnt a lot. for example! at first when i toast chicken sushi, for my old toaster it takes like 20 mins? MY TOASTER NOW TAKES EIGHT. and its right from the freezer! so erm, yea u know the maximum time is 15mins for toasters, so i turned it all the way, then came back to use com, when i went back it was all black. uh huh. so yea i tried to eat as much of the edible parts as possible, then others all throw away. so ya its quite amazing how fast and efficient my toaster is now lol.
basically i'm sorta learning how to be independant i guess. throwing rubbish everyday, cleaning the house, and stuff. haha its kinda fun if you think about it. its a "new" life. so yea its not all that bad. i think i just needa go and think of other ways to relax or sth. the things u can do on the computer that are fun is really limited. maybe i shud learn how to breakdance. been trying to do the handwave thingy. and yea its okay. but its not good. lol. so ya, maybe i shud find more interesting things to do.
but time alone allows me to think a lot. and i mean a lot. like what should i do for tmr, what to do for preparing breakfast, what do i do to not make the house messy, when to revise blahblah. went downstairs to da bao KFC up just now, and on the way i passed by the bread shop, so decided to buy bread for tmr's breakfast! yumyum. my mom already bought choc. milk for me, so yea its gonna be a good breakfast. home alone like makes me think ahead a lot, like what to buy when stuff is running out, normally i do buy stuff from NTUC back home from school, like after i alight the bus and pass by, but its different in the sense that its for myself, but normally its my mom thats buying the groceries, and now no one is doing that for me? yeap. and i think its quite cool to really take care of yourself and stuff.
kinda makes u feel more grown up (:
haha.. maybe i'm too childish already. oh well. hopefully i get to go out tmr! was asking ang whether wanna go for movie coz i haven watched casino royale.. and hopefully more pple can come! =D
yup thats all for now :)
round and round we go...
